Ugly Duckling

“A Dream which can never get fulfilled…”

                                                                                                                               

 A slim figure with a good height, just like a model, long hairs, big brown eyes, killer smile, fair complexion, rosy lips, a crafted face, just like a Barbie doll. Wow! How can someone look so beautiful and just perfect? Hold on! I am not talking about me. Well how can I talk about beauty? Unfortunately, I am not blessed like her. Well I am just too ordinary to be blessed. I kept staring at her new Facebook profile picture, the more I looked, the more I used to envy her. After all she actually looked flawless which I never can.

I closed my laptop and looked myself into the mirror. I turned and saw the big bulges around my waist and tummy part. Then I stared at my face weirdly, my black spectacles looked pale on my brown skin. I saw my features, I looked just ok, average, or may be, below average. I sat on my bed and wondered "Why God made me like this? Why I am not beautiful like she is? What is my fault? Even I wish to look beautiful" A tear slit down my eye. I wiped it and went to sleep.

Well this is my story, the story of an "UGLY DUCKLING - SHANIA" who is just an average fat girl, nothing special, just nothing. I don't have a friend circle coz I don't have the guts to talk to people. I don't have a Boyfriend and to be honest, I can never have one coz I am not good looking and above all my weight just blows away my confidence level. I always sunk in my inferiority complex which I have towards others.

I don't speak up. I don't talk much. Basically I am a loner who is just wasting her life for no good reason. It's not that I don't want to transform myself, it's just that I don't have the guts to take a move. I belong to a rich family but it doesn't alter the fact that I am a big time introvert. I feel scared talking to unknowns. I feel scared that they will bully me and make fun of my looks but somewhere, deep inside, I am a totally different girl, a girl who is ambitious, who wants to fly and do something fruitful with her life, a girl who wants to look good, have friends, boyfriends, who want to enjoy her life just like other girls do but I know this can never happen coz it's just a dream, A DREAM WHICH CAN NEVER BE FULFILLED no matter how much I fantasize about it and urge it. Yes! This is the harsh reality about my life and you know what's even worse?

Tomorrow is my 12th board exam result and as always I have no expectations from me but you know often in life, "whatever happens, happens for a reason" and even in my life something happened and happened for a reason...

COLLEGE TIME

 My heart was pounding whole of the time. I was just so tensed. I closed my eyes, prayed to dearest almighty, opened my eyes, entered my roll number and clicked "ENTER". I was jaw dropped to see my result, I scored 84%. It was an amazing feeling. I am not very good at studies so being an average 70% scorer it was a really big thing for me and my family.

Now mission "DELHI UNIVERSITY" started. Being from a small town in Bihar, Ara, just the mere thought of studying in Delhi haunted me. I heard Delhi is an exotic place but very unsafe and fast too. My moral went down again. I went to my parents and said "I think Patna University is all right for me it was also very close to my city. Why Delhi University?"

 But my parents were very adamant as they wanted me to study political science from the best university and college. I made tons of excuses but nothing worked. After a few days, I saw the first cut off list for DU admissions and was shocked to see that I wasn't getting the college of my choice. It was a big disappointment now as I thought at least a good college would have good crowd but I think all the flaws are there in my destiny only. Anyhow I again tried to console myself. The very next day, we went to Delhi for admission. I got admitted in Moti Lal Nehru College. I saw the campus. Well it was just ok. Then we booked my PG accommodation. Thanks to my parents who could afford an individual rented flat for me to live in.

We went back home after all the tedious procedures. Seriously these days education isn't less than a rat race. Days passed by, usually teenagers get excited just by the thought of going college but I was getting nervous coz I am not a normal girl. I have always been bullied, since school I have been a laughing stock, I knew pretty well that college would make me experience even worse. I wish I could just stay at home forever with my parents and siblings.

Finally 7^th August, 2019 arrived, the first day of college. I reached Delhi a day before only. Like a grown up girl I arranged my new small home. I remembered the tons of advices my parents especially my mother gave me. Well I just hope I don't let them down. That whole night I couldn't sleep. I had no one with whom I could talk. I got up early morning and checked out my wardrobe. I had tons of clothes but nothing suits me well on my body type. If I wear tight clothes, I look fat with all the visible bulges and if I wear loose clothes, I look even fat coz of the bulkiness. I sat down in distress and after wasting 1 and half hour I finally picked up a decent printed kurti with slacs, tied my hairs, put my black spectacles and went off to my college.

As I entered college, I saw countless new faces, some alone like me, some in groups, everyone looked so happy. I was a bit glad seeing the aura around. Then I started searching for my Political Science department and somehow reached there. Before entering again I freezed. I felt scared but somehow entered and saw my class. It was a lecture hall actually. I entered and saw a few students, my classmates, they smiled, I kept on staring them and after a few seconds I smiled back too. "Shit! I am just so stupid" I scolded myself in my mind. I took the first bench and sat down, a few lectures passed by, everything was normal till the last lecture but suddenly, right after our lectures got over, a bunch of seniors came in, I guess might be they wanted to RAG us. I got extremely scared and my bad luck is so bad and even worse, I was sitting on the first desk so immediately they called me in front. Imagine? Me? The first? I starting shivering just by the mere thought of getting ragged in front of the whole class, Dear almighty please please please bless me...

A SPECIAL MEET

My seniors called me in front. I was literally shivering. My heart was beating thousand times faster. I somehow got up. Just within a second, I heard nasty comments on my looks "Fatty", "Aunty", "Idiot", "Dumb". They addressed me with every insulting adjective they could. I could hear the giggles and laughter’s on me. Well I am used to this bullying since long but what made it difficult to adjust was the new environment, the new people. It was like a torture. I felt like crying and running away. It was so insulting. Suddenly, in the midst of nowhere, a very strange loud voice buzzed on top volume with lots of abuses in the hall room. My batch mates started laughing on top of their voice and everyone's attention diverted.

Seniors immediately started looking out for the culprit and everyone started arguing. Basically I got saved from getting insulted even more. I got a bit relaxed and sat down again. After a while seniors left. I immediately got up and headed towards my flat when suddenly I heard a manly voice from behind "At least I deserve a thanks". I stopped and turned around. I was stunned to see a guy, well, he looked strange and stupid, his dress up was awkward and hairs were messy, he wore red specs on his wheatish skin, had sky scrapper height and was extremely lean. Overall he looked weird to me. "Uhmm! What?" I said.

Well my ring tone saved you from getting insulted publically so I deserve a thanks at least. I was shocked to hear that. This guy actually helped me by buzzing that ringtone to divert attention of seniors from me. I was obliged. I smiled a bit and said "Thanks". I immediately looked down at my kurti to see if it was all right and started to pull it down to make it fine again. "You’re looking fine" he said and smiled. I got a bit embarrassed and smiled at him again.

 "So we are classmates and you are my first friend in college. Hi I am Vipul" he said happily

"Shania!" I said shyly

 He started conversing with me on just any topic and accompanied me to my flat. He said he reside nearby. Well needless to say, he was a very friendly guy. I liked him. Seemed as if my looks didn't matter him much. In our conversation, it was only him who was initiating, I wanted to talk but I am not that open with people in the very first meet though I will try my best to talk to him in future like the way I should and in fact, I want to do. Hold on! Have I actually started to like him? No! No! A big NO! I can't like him just like that though I liked the way he conversed with me. He made me happy from within. I wish, I wish I could tell him how glad I was to meet him and talk to him. Anyways, for now we exchanged numbers and he added me on Facebook. I came to my flat and freshened up, thinking, thinking about my first day of college, well, it was bad but not that bad either. I smiled a bit when suddenly my phone buzzed. I saw a WhatsApp text from Vipul "It was nice talking to you"

 I smiled and replied "Same here"

And like that our conversation started. I didn't realize when 4 hours passed by. I actually conversed with Vipul for hours tirelessly on what's app. Well I am good at texting coz I am not good at conversing with people face to face or on phone but still I never talk to anyone this long. I felt shy and a bit awkward. What to do, I am like this only. Then after a while, when I was just about to sleep, I smiled for no good reason. I couldn't believe, I was actually happy. I couldn't believe, even my life could be good. It's always a pleasure when something happens which give us immense pleasure that too unexpectedly and that too with a girl like me. Now I was just waiting for tomorrow, I don't know if tomorrow's excitement was for my second day in college or to meet Vipul but whatever it was, it was good, really really good.

FANTASTIC FIVE

 "Shania you are so sweet" said Vipul smiling at me. I blushed and didn't say anything. Suddenly I opened my eyes and within a second I realized it was a dream. "Shit" I said to myself. I couldn't believe Vipul actually came in my dream. God! That's just unbelievable. I can't believe I was so attracted to Vipul within a day. I saw the time. I woke up 5 minutes early. I turned off my alarm and started thinking about Vipul. I don't know why but I was highly attracted towards him not just coz of his friendly nature but also coz of his unbiased and normal behaviour towards me. Seemed as if he understood me and my silence. Seemed like he likes me and wants me as his friend coz of my nature not my looks. I smiled stupidly and started getting ready for college.

Well again it was a big task for me to decide what to wear. I somehow again chose a decent kurti, teamed it with slacs, casual chappals and headed towards college. As soon as I reached class, my eyes were searching for Vipul. I saw him nowhere. I got curious, saw his WhatsApp last seen. It showed 3:35am. I got worried if he would turn up to college or not. I thought of messaging him but I don't know why, I just couldn't. I felt that I might look desperate, in reality I was but I obviously didn't want him to know about it. I was as usual sitting alone on the first desk, saw my batch mates, they were all busy chatting, I wish I could be like them, so open and so friendly. I took out a register and started scribbling just anything in it to show that I am busy too. Just after a while, lecture started, I got disappointed due to Vipul's absence. 15 minutes passed by when suddenly the classroom door banged open, I got a huge smile on my face to see Vipul on the door. He looked really bad with those pajama and chappals, anyone could make out he just came running from his bed, I doubt if he even washed his face. Anyways, I was just glad, at least he came.

 But our lecturer got extremely annoyed seeing his weird indecent look and didn't let him in. He apologized a lot for coming late and as always, his pleasing personality melted our lecturer too and she let him in. I was constantly looking at him, he was searching someone, immediately he saw me in the very front, I moved my face I don't know why, he smiled at me, came, sat beside me on the first bench and said "Hey wassup?"

 "Oh Uhmmm! I, I am fine!" I said hesitatingly. I don't know why do I do this always, seriously I behave so stupidly in front of him. I want to say so many things to him but whenever he actually comes in front of me, I can hardly face him. I kept quite whole of the time thinking what should I do, to talk to him. I gathered courage and asked him "Uhmm! I, I was wondering you won't come today!"

 "I had to meet you so obviously I had to come!" He said sarcastically and laughed.

I smiled a bit too. He is so funny. Lectures got over. We went to canteen. He introduced me to a few new friends he made recently, Reema, Sarthak and Gagan, they were friendly too. I liked them all a lot. We all exchanged numbers and made plans to hangout around the campus. I got scared coz my parents wouldn't like me hanging around like that but I couldn't refuse Vipul. We went to canteen, had awesome food there, then started exploring the campus area, went to nearby famous places, clicked lots of pictures, cracked jokes, laughed, I just couldn't believe the day passed by just like that, so fast and so good, it couldn't have been better. I came home and was cherishing those golden moments I spent with Vipul, Sarthak, Reema and Gagan. I couldn't believe life could be so good. I couldn't believe I could be blessed too, blessed to have friends like them. I was actually smiling, I was actually happy. Well this is how Vipul started changing my life. I was still an "UGLY DUCKLING", but Vipul made me feel like I am no different, he treated me, just like a girl should be treated. First time in my life, I felt what the essence of friendship is, first time I realized what being bonded is. Vipul was now my special someone, at least for me he was, I used to love his company, his stupid jokes, I used to love his nature, everything about him. The best part was that we both are just opposite, me, a fat girl who is a big time introvert but extremely disciplined by nature and him, extremely lean, over friendly and totally in disciplined. Seriously, couldn't believe him to be my closest buddy.

Weeks passed by, we five, the fantastic five were now the best of friends, a day without each other seemed a day incomplete. Now I was quite open to them. Now I was not scared. Now life seemed just PERFECT coz they all understood me and accepted me for who I am but can an ugly duckling's life be actually perfect for long? I don't think! I really don't think so! And definitely an incidence just put a full stop to my perfect happy life.

THE REAL ME

It was almost a month since my college was on and I actually had friends who were just like me, imperfect but true. I was happy as my life was just so good. We now used to hang around and party together, sometimes in campus, sometimes out, somewhere or the other and at times in my flat coz I reside alone and it's good to be with friends. 20^th September,2019 we had the same night party plan at my flat. I was arranging everything just the way Vipul likes, the cards, the drinks, the seating, just everything. I don't know why but he is definitely the most special person for me and I am truly in love with him.

Around 9pm everyone came, we ordered Domino’s pizza and started dancing with loud music turned on, a little boozing, lots of fun, laughter, giggles, well this is what we do always, time passed by and after 1am everyone was tired but for obvious reasons no one wanted to sleep. We turned off the music and decided to play "TRUTH AND DARE". All five of us sat in a circle, Vipul spinning the empty vodka bottle, initially the game was going pretty well, we were busy making fun and pranking on each other through weird dares, insulting each other and trying our level best to know each other's "Top Secrets". The game was no and in no time, the bottle flipped and turned on me again, I chose "TRUTH", immediately Vipul asked "Ok so Shania tell us your one secret ambition"

 I immediately started laughing. Personally I wanted to tell Vipul that my biggest secret ambition was to be with him forever. I thought of telling this truth to him but suddenly I thought it's not the right time coz Sarthak, Gagan and Reema were also there. All four of them suddenly got very impatient and I just had no time to think, I had to say something so I just spoke my second biggest ambition "Uhmm, I, I always had this ambition to act publically, as in, in front of everyone, like a skit or narration but I know this ambition of mine can never get fulfilled coz acting is something which I can't even do alone so acting in front of a crowd? I know! I can never do it!"

 Suddenly, everyone started staring me. I got embarrassed actually. Then Vipul started laughing and said "Yeah! True that, you can never act, a girl who can't even look into her best friend's eyes and talk properly face to face, well, how can she act? That too publically? That's just impossible!" I was stunned to listen his reply. In fact, his reply hurt me. I thought Vipul would console me but instead he let me down. Well, what down? He just said the truth and truth is that I really can't talk to people confidently. Well I got actually upset now. I made an excuse and went to sleep while others continued to play and then watch movie. I went to washroom and looked myself into the mirror. I removed my spectacles and kept on staring myself for long. Suddenly, Vipul banged open my room door and came in. "When will you learn to knock the door and come in?" I taunted

"The day you become what you really are!" he said and smiled.

 "What? Didn't get you?" I asked

 "You have dual personality Shania. You have two girls inside you. One whom you portray to others and one who you really are. Ok let me explain. Remember the first day of college? That day we both entered the gate together and I saw you talking with your parents on phone, then smiling alone seeing groups of friends hanging around, then while entering you took God's name and entered, to me you seemed a really confident and beautiful hearted person that time, that's why I got attracted towards you, your personality actually, but, as soon as you entered class, you were a totally changed personality, you put your head down, stopped smiling, you got nervous and weren't even speaking a single word. Sorry to say but this is not you. I have been with you since around a month now. You are the girl who talks tirelessly for hours not that quiet under confident girl, you are the girl who wants to do something fruitful with her life not waste it for no good reason, you are the girl who smiles and laughs without thinking what others will think not the girl who is 24x7 conscious about her looks and what others will think, you are the girl who don't really show off and care about looks not the one who tries to copy someone, you are that ambitious girl who wants to pursue her dream, her secret ambition of acting publically not the one who hides her ambitions, well, THIS IS YOU, THE REAL YOU, THE REAL SHANIA!"

 I was just jaw dropped to hear what Vipul said. How could he understand me so well? How could he know me so well? How? A tear slit down my eye. Vipul hugged me warmly. I hugged him back. I had nothing to say, nothing at all. Vipul was the first person to understood "THE REAL ME", the real Shania, he understood and saw the inner me and I just couldn't be more happy. I don't know what the future has in store for me, good or bad, but I just know one thing that Vipul is my love, my life and I never ever wanna let him go, never ever.

MY ONLY LOVE!

 I saw Vipul's eyes first time so closely, no doubt I was madly in love with him. He held my hand, kissed it, I just closed my eyes, he came close, very close, so close that I could hear his breath, I could feel his heartbeat, I loved his smell, I loved his touch, I don't know why but I was just hypnotized for that moment. Indeed it was magical. I held him tight and clinged to him like a baby. We couldn't be more close now. Just within a second he kissed my right cheek gently. What a spellbound feeling it was. Then he kissed my forehead. Then my left cheek and then within a second his lips touched mine. I just wanted that moment, that exotic moment to pause, pause for a lifetime.

Yes! It was my first kiss and no doubt it was much more beautiful then what I thought it would be. I was totally mesmerized, I was totally lost in his love, his die heart love for me. He hugged me tight, very tight and whispered in my ears "I LOVE YOU SHANIA" and that was all I ever wanted to hear. That was all I ever dreamt off. I couldn't believe my secret ambition got fulfilled so early and so playfully. This was the first time I felt special, the first time anyone made me feel like I am the only girl in the world, the first time when I forgot that I am an "UGLY DUCKLING". No doubt, Vipul loved me the same way that I did.

Whole night we were just into each other, totally lost, totally in love, my FIRST LOVE. I just didn't want to let go that magical night and no matter what, I will never forget this night my entire lifetime. Everything happened so fast. A month back, Vipul was just an ordinary stupid joker of my class and now, the same guy is my life. I just couldn't believe dearest almighty had this wonderful plan for me. Seriously, love comes when you don't need it and all that happens, happens for a reason. All I could do was, thank, thank the dearest almighty for all his love and blessings, for showering him and his love on me. It was the best feeling of my life and I am gonna cherish it throughout, always and forever.

Night passed by, I opened my eyes, saw my mobile, it was 1:45p.m., I immediately got up and saw Vipul right in front of me. He waved his hands on my cheeks and said sweetly "Good morning sweetheart! I have a surprise for you!"

 "Surprise?" I asked yawning. The very next second he handed me a pamphlet. I could barely see anything without my spectacles. I asked him for my spectacles. "But you look more beautiful without spectacles, don't wear them for now" He said and smiled. I smiled back and said "Yeah but I can hardly see and read without them"

 "Ok we will find a solution for that too." He patted my cheeks and gave me my spectacles. I wore them and cleared my vision, saw the pamphlet and I was stunned to see what was on Vipul's mind.

 I shouted "WHAT? NOWAY VIPUL! THAT'S JUST SO IMPOSSIBLE!" IT'S TIME TO FOLLOW MY DREAMS

 I saw the pamphlet Vipul gave me and immediately refused him and why wouldn't I refuse him? How could he expect me to do this? That's just not possible. After all, he wanted me to audition for our college's dramatic society, can you imagine? Yes! The pamphlet was of our college's dramatic society, FLAMES, inviting fresher’s to audition for it, they were in need of 3 girls who could speak and act well. Obviously, I can't do it. I am not made to face the public and act, even the mere thought of it haunts me. I am an ugly duckling who is not meant for this. "No! No Vipul! I am not gonna audition!" I said adamantly.

 "And can I ask why?" He asked firmly

"I don't have any reason. I just! I just can't!"

 "That's not the answer Shania! Tell me clearly what's the matter?"

 "Coz I don't have the guts to audition. I am afraid. I am afraid of it's outcome."

"Afraid of outcome? What outcome? Tell me exactly!"

I thought for a while and said "I don't know! I am just afraid! What will people say if I forgot my lines or if I looked stupid? See! Just look at me! I am fat! I am ugly! People laugh at me and bully me. They give me names. They treat me like shit. I am just not meant to act! Acting and facing the audience is only for those beautiful model like girls who can show off themselves, their beauty! I just can't do it! I don't want to be a joker again. Even I am a human and I do get hurt"

He kept silent for a minute and kept staring me. "What?" I asked.

"Nothing! I am just thinking how can someone be so foolish!"

 "Foolish? You think it's foolish? Vipul you don't understand. I am not normal."

"Yes! Definitely you not normal Shania, you are stupid! Come with me" he held my hand, took me in front of the big mirror and said "What do you see?" "I see you and me" I said without thinking

"Wanna know what do I see?" I kept quiet and waited for his reply. He added "Well, I see a girl who is not fat, I see a girl who is just a bit healthy. I don't see a girl who is under confident, I see a girl who once boosted, can blow off anyone with her talent and ambition. I see a girl who is honest, pure and clear, just like this mirror is. I see a girl who isn't ugly, I see a girl who is just perfect the way she is. Shania! You don't need to bother what others say coz others will always have something to say no matter what you do and how you look. What matters is what you want to do. You have to come out of your shell Shania and you have to follow your dreams not only coz u want it but also coz I want it too, follow your heart my love, just follow your heart!"

Suddenly a tear slit down my eye. Vipul wiped it gently and hugged me. I couldn't believe! How? How could Vipul love me so much? How could he know me so well? I hugged him back tight and said "Ok I promise! I PROMISE TO FOLLOW MY DREAMS ONLY COZ OF YOU MY LOVE!"

 Indeed Vipul is the best thing that ever happened to me. I couldn't believe I found love, that true love I always dreamt off. Yes! I am not the most prettiest girl in the world and neither is Vipul the most handsome guy out here but at least for us, we both are just the best. Our looks doesn't matter to us, what matters is our heart. I used to be a girl who believed that true love doesn't exist but Vipul proved me just so wrong. I was still hugging him tight, I didn't want to leave him. I closed my eyes and wished, wished from the bottom of my heart for every Shania to get her Vipul soon, very soon.

 MY GROOMING

 My audition for "FLAMES" was scheduled the very next day. We, the Fantastic five, were having core discussion on how to give my best stroke to get selected. Finally everyone made a list of things I needed to do before auditions

- Get a pair of contact lens (Well I agreed to it only when Vipul promised that they will be natural and my real eye colour would be visible. I am not a girl who can wear tacky coloured lens after all. I am simple and sober)

- Get good clothes and footwear (As per Reema, the clothes I wear were very outdated and bad. To be honest, I am very much aware of this fact but I couldn't help, my body type doesn't allow me to wear good sexy clothes but she urged and said that she has got some fantastic fashion ideas for me so I agreed somehow, well there is nothing wrong in mere change)

- Eye contact (As per Gagan, when I talk, I don't face the person and don't look into his eyes. Well, he is true, I am just too nervous to talk face to face. He asked me to practice talking face to face and make sure that while giving audition, I must face the audience. I don't think I will be able to achieve it so fast but I will definitely give it a try. From now I will try and look into the eyes and talk, I promised myself)

- Smile (As per Sarthak, I should smile, smile more and in fact, smile a lot not coz I need a reason to smile but coz I look good when I smile. I think he is right too. I hardly smile. I don't feel good when I smile but he said smile portrays personality and confidence. I thought to apply the same in my real life too.

So finally, we had whole evening, everyone was busy teaching me how to talk, walk, smile, sit. It was actually fun being the only student of four teachers. They were so involved in me. Vipul got me my natural contact lens and Reema got my a few "A-line" long tops in bright single colours which best suit me, 2 inch wedge sandals, I couldn't believe, they suited me so well, as if they were made for me. I looked much better, I couldn't believe "MY GROOMING" could be this good. I was just looking at myself into the mirror in amazement when Vipul came from behind, kissed me and said "Only 1 thing left!"

"What?" I asked smiling. He pulled my hairband and opened my hairs. I kissed his hand "Thank you Vipul! Thank you so much!" I said and hugged him. Suddenly Reema, Gagan and Sarthak came too and we all hugged each other. Indeed they are my best buddies, my life, my everything. I feel blessed having besties like them. Now, It's my time to prove myself and give my best tomorrow, not for myself but for my buddies, for their effort, for their love, for everything they did for me, now it's my time to show what I can do for my love, now I am just waiting for tomorrow and hoping, hoping for the best not coz I am not an Ugly Duckling, I am still an Ugly Duckling but the difference is that now I am a bit confident Ugly duckling coz I have my friends behind me, I don't know what will happen tomorrow, may be, I make fun of me again, may be I get bullied again just like every time but this time, it won't matter me at all coz I know my strongest pillars of life would be there for me, to hold me, to support me, now I am just waiting for tomorrow.

Finally I realized that "PERSONALITY OUTSHINE LOOKS ALWAYS" and I promise to focus on my talent and personality tomorrow. Now let's see what's in take for me.

FLAMES

finally the doom day arrived and there was no backing out now. It was my time to prove myself. The clock struck 2p.m. and I was there in the college auditorium with my group for the auditions. Vipul filled up my form already and handed me with my audition number, it was 7, my lucky number, indeed, these mere things he notice and do for me, makes me fall for him, in love, with love, all over again. The audition had 3 rounds

1) Introduction Round (Where the contestant need to introduce themselves and tell their basic details and of course the reason for participation in FLAMES)

2) Skit Round (The contestant needs to perform a small 2 minute skit of any movie or play where the overall acting skills would be judged)

After completion of round 2, shortlisted contestants will be announced who will proceed further to Round 3 - "THE COMMON SCRIPT ROUND", they will be given 15 minutes break to rehearse a common script provided to everyone, then they need to act it in the best possible way and the 3 best girls will be selected accordingly.

I saw, there were around 30 girls auditioning along with me. I took a deep breath and waited for my turn.

Round 1 started, they called contestant 7, I took god's name and walked in front of the stage, took the mike from the guy, looked straight towards the judging panel "Good afternoon!" The very next second, I heard claps and cheers for me. Needless to say, it was from my lovely Fantastic 5. I smiled. It boosted my confidence. "I am Shania. 18 years old. I am from a small town Ara, situated near capital city of Bihar." I said and took a pause again coz of the claps and whistles. I was so glad. I just looked at my friends and continued ,"I want to be a part of FLAMES not just coz I love acting but coz I dream acting, it's my foremost passion, my love, I wanna live my dreams and for that, FLAMES is the best available platform. Thank you!"

This time, not just my friends but the whole crowd including judges clapped for me. I felt so good. I couldn't believe it was me who actually introduced myself in front of 200 people and they all liked my introduction so much, irrespective of my looks, they clapped for me. I couldn't believe people could like a girl like me. I was on top of the world. I just closed my eyes and thanked God for everything. Like wise, Round 1 got over, Round 2 proceeded where I had to present my acting skills. Well, since I got to know about Round 2, I was just thinking for the right skit to be performed, I could actually find none. I actually thought a lot and the very next moment, I got an idea, I remembered all my bathroom skits I used to perform secretly for hours, I remembered those awesome dialogues which I learnt and dreamt of performing someday. I thought of doing a short skit compiling them and making my bathroom crazy skits, the real ones.

When my turn arrived, I went to the middle of the stage, imagined my bathroom scene, as if no one seeing me, as if I am totally alone and performing just in front of my mirror as before. I delivered all the dialogues smoothly just like I used to do every time secretly. The only difference was that this time I had crowd to applaud me and praise me. I just couldn't believe this was happening. I acted for a minute I suppose but the way my friends and even audience supported me, that just touched me. Now it was shortlisting time. They already announced 7 names, my confidence level dropped. I was expecting my name when suddenly they called "SHANIA POLITICAL SCIENCE" and Vipul just jumped over me in happiness. We all actually went crazy. There were hooting’s, cheers, laughs. It was like a dream come true. I was successful in clearing my Round 2 and I along with 9 other girls proceeded to Round 3, the common skit round. They handed us with a 100 words long dialogue. I had just 15 minutes to prepare for it. I tried to memorize them all. I am actually a good learner so I memorized it by heart and got ready with my act.

Turns went, it was my turn finally. I went on to the stage, set the mike when suddenly someone shouted "Aunty! Aunty!" I was so upset to hear that comment on me. It distressed me. Immediately everyone started laughing. I saw Vipul, he was asking me to continue with my skit but unfortunately, I just couldn't. My eyes filled with tears. My heart started sinking. Again I was being bullied. People can never change. I was just standing still and I came back from my dream world, for a second I forgot that I was Ugly Duckling but immediately I realized that I was and I will always be an Ugly Duckling who has no right to try anything new, who can never succeed, who is a looser. My friends started clapping for me again to cheer me but it was too late now. I backed out and ran off the stage.

 DREAMS DO COME TRUE

Today I realized that people are so bad and cunning with people like me. They don't see anything except my looks. Yes! I know I am dark, I am fat, I know I am ugly. I know I look worse but I am a human, a girl who has heart, ambitions, dreams, who wants to live, but I think it's a crime to do so. Tears slit down my eyes. I was crying loudly coz I failed, I failed again. I am a sheer looser. I am just useless. Everyone did so much for me but I put them down. I just couldn't stop crying. Suddenly, a hand held my shoulder from behind, it was Vipul, I immediately hugged him tight, he hugged me back and didn't utter a single word. I kept on crying for 5 minutes when the very next second, a girl from the dramatic society came and asked me to try again but I seriously didn't had the guts to go on stage again so I refused. She introduced herself as Riya. She was in 2nd year Economics department and said that I did well and had the potential to be a part of FLAMES. Her words were enough for me. Everyone consoled me and after a while we left.

We came home and I realized the value of the golden opportunity I missed. Being in Flames was a step close to my dream. I wish I was more confident, I wish I was more brave, I wish I had the guts to face those ugly comments on me, I wish, I wish I was not an Ugly duckling. Tears were constantly pouring and I just couldn't help. May be, this is my destiny, to face failures everywhere, at every point of my life. Days passed by, now I was getting better. I was trying to overcome everything. Vipul helped me a lot in this but as they say, "Destiny plays it's part always" and even my destiny had something else in store for me. One fine day, Riya called me to Flames rehearsal hall for practicing of her upcoming role in the skit "UNICORN" which was based on the life of a girl who was a loner and suffered through cancer. Riya played parallel lead opposite the main lead role played by recently selected girl, Kazol. I helped Riya is rehearsing by speaking up Kazol's dialogues. I could so relate to that character. In fact, I was so involved coz I could actually feel the pain of that girl, being a loner, who was always made fun of, who was always a laughing stock, being hurt, taunted, insulted and in the end she dies of cancer but people never change and they so inhuman that even after she died, people made fun of her and were happy she died.

This story, UNICORN was just so touchy. It's moral was quite evident. It said that we should never hurt someone intentionally or unintentionally coz you never know what the other person is going through. Even after her death people were happy. This is reality of us Ugly ducklings, we just have no existence and we are not even treated as humans. It seemed my story totally that's why I thought of helping Riya in this. Well, for the next 3 days I helped Riya in practicing and remembering her dialogues’. Till now, we had practiced so much that I actually remembered Kazol's dialogues perfectly too. Now, I didn't even needed the script, I was so well versed. The very next day, in our practice, the President of Flames, Preety saw us rehearsing. I don't know what magic she felt in my dialogues, she immediately called me and asked me if I could play the lead role for UNICORN instead of Kazol coz Kazol doesn't fit the role much and my look suits the role perfectly. For lead role they needed a girl who is quite ordinary looking but a good actress. I couldn't believe what she just said. I paused for a while and started thinking. Well, this was my dream come true if I accept her offer but my confidence level was way too low. What if someone again made fun of me? What if someone again insulted me? Laughed at me? What if I again ran off the stage like a looser? I got scared "I, I am sorry Preety, I won't be able to do this." I said

"What?" Riya and Preety shouted in shock. I looked down and said "Yes! You heard it right. I cannot do it coz I am not meant to do this."

"No! She will do it!" said Vipul from behind.

I was shocked to see him. I had thousands of questions in my eyes but before I could say anything he added," Shania! I sent Preety to your rehearsal to make her have a look at your performance. They needed a new lead girl since long coz Kazol didn't suit the requirement much. You suit the bill so perfectly. The way you spoke the dialogues were just so touchy. Come on! Now I don't wanna hear anything. You have to do it not for you, but, for me, for us and above all, for your dreams. You have to do it Shania"

I had nothing to say. I kept quiet and smiled thinking that life is actually unpredictable. Whatever happens, happens for a reason and this incidence made me realize that "YES! DREAMS DO COME TRUE"

MAY BE IT'S MY FAULT

I couldn't believe finally, finally my dream was now coming true. I was a part of FLAMES. It was such a great feeling, totally awesome. My smile had no bars. My excitement had no limit. Days passed by, we started practicing "Unicorn" play to the core for our Annual Dramatics competition to be held next month. Since I had the lead role, people actually started respecting me. Now the same people who used to torture me, degrade me, bully me with their awful and bad comments now cheered me, praised me and started to like me. My confidence level raised. I was just extremely glad coz of the fact that finally things were going smooth for me. Now I had new friends, new group in fact. Everything was now just perfect. Whole day long we used to practice and then after practicing we used to hang around and plan for further improvisations in Flames.

 In this extremely busy schedule of mine, I didn't even realize when things took a turn, a turn towards my dream, a step closer towards my ambition but as they say "Everything comes with a price" and even this thing came with a price, a very big price, which was none other then "VIPUL". I don't know why, I don't know what happened but Vipul and me started to part ways. Whole day long I used to be with my Flames friends and even after trying hard, I just couldn't find time for Vipul and Fantastic Five. Weeks passed by, now we hardly met and whenever we met, I was indulged in Flames and only Flames. I used to check my WhatsApp, it used to be flooded with Vipul's text but I couldn't reply to him coz it was no use of replying as I obviously wouldn't be able to talk. When I used to come back home, I was usually so dead tired that I used to sleep straight away without talking to him which made him feel ignored. He used to call, I couldn't pick. He used to message, I couldn't reply. I wasn't ignoring him but situations conferred as if I was ignoring.
I know, somewhere at the end, it was my fault. I wish I could have managed things well, I wish, I wish I could change the past but it was just too late now. One fine day, Vipul came up to my place. I was busy doing my college work. I hugged him and asked him to sit. He refused and said he needs to talk to me right now. I knew what he wanted to talk about but still I agreed and sat with him. He held my hand and said "Shania! I just wanna ask you one question and then I am leaving!"

I kept quiet and waited for him to continue further. He added "Why did you change?"

I took a deep breath and said "No Vipul! Not at all. How can I change? I am still the same."

 He smiled and said "No Shania! No! You are a totally a changed girl now."

"Ok! Just coz I don't talk to you for hours like before, so I am changed? Come on Vipul."

"I never asked you to talk to me for hours. I understand, I truly understand that you busy and I respect that, don't forget it was me who approached Flames for you coz I respect your dream and ambition but I can't believe you so busy that you can't even wish me a mere good morning? a mere good night? I can't believe you so busy that you have time to hang around with your new group but now with your old buddies? and I can't believe that you so busy that you forgot my birthday?"

I had simply no reply to this. I kept quiet in guilt. He said "I loved you for what you were Shania. I loved that girl who valued me, who loved me the way I did but unfortunately, you have time for everyone except me. It's never about time, it's always about priority and now your dream is your only priority not me, I don't even exist in your life now but for me, you are still my priority. I have always loved you and will keep on loving you but not like this. I am sorry but now your behaviour have crossed my patience limit. I am tired of getting hurt. I am leaving, leaving from your life."

Suddenly, my heart skipped a beat. I was in shock. "WHAT?" I shouted and said "You mean. You want to break up with me?"

"Yes! I want a break from you"

My eyes filled with tears. My senses stopped working. I was speechless and out of words. He left me crying. I tried to stop him but he didn't listen. I tried to apologize but he ignored totally. I couldn't believe Vipul left me mid way like this, just like that? If he really loved me, he should have understood me but may be, MAY BE IT WAS MY FAULT TOO. Now the biggest pillar of my life was broken and I went into depression, deep depression. Sorry Vipul, sorry. Please come back! I need you!

CHANGED ME

Life, life is just so unpredictable. I couldn't believe Vipul left me hanging in mid way like this, I couldn't believe he left me like this. I truly understand it's my fault. I was wrong but I thought he would understand me and my love for him. I still love him. His absence killed me. I couldn't bear it anymore. I tried to contact Reema, Gagan and Sarthak but no one bothered to help me. Fantastic Five was just a name now coz it's essence was all gone. Our group ruined and was totally broken. I had no one by my side except my Flames buddies. Riya was now my closest friend. She consoled me and made me realize that friends come and go but golden opportunity doesn't wait for anyone. She wanted me to move on in my life. I had everything now. Cool friends, cool group, awesome society, amazing crowd and above all, me and my groomed and confident personality.

Now, people ignored my looks. What mattered to them was my personality and confident acting skills. In this busy schedule of mine, somewhere at the end I forgot my past and tried to move on in reality. Day by day, my company changed me completely. Now I wore good fashionable branded clothes instead of those kurti, now my hairstyle changed, now I wore coloured lens, I used to go shopping, buy amazing stuffs, bags, boots, make up, glasses. I used to like fashion magazines now and even joined gym to tone up my body and grow lean and slim. Weeks passed by and I was now a totally CHANGED SHANIA. I didn't find myself ugly anymore. Yes, I was still not the most beautiful girl but yes, I was definitely not the most ugliest as well. As they say, "PERSONALITY OUTSHINES LOOKS ALWAYS"

Yes! Even my personality outshined my looks. Now I had tons of friends personally and on Facebook also. I was becoming popular and the day "Unicorn" play was performed, my popularity touched sky. Everyone wanted to know the girl who played the main lead. That day, I got 100+ friend requests on Facebook on the spot. It was such an amazing feeling. I felt so proud and on top of the world. That was all I wanted always. Finally, finally my dream came true. We partied, celebrated and enjoyed. Now I used to drink also, not coz I wanted to but coz everyone in Flames used to. I used to go out for night outs, for clubbing. Now my life was totally changed. Somewhere at the end, that old under confident Shania died inside me and I buried her deep inside. Now someone couldn't even dare to bully me coz I learnt to insult people back, taunt them and at times bully them in return too.

In fact not even this but I got a few proposals also and one of them was of my super senior, Ronit. He was one handsome and rich guy. Although I didn't love him but I had a crush on him. I said yes. Now I had a supercool boyfriend also. My life was just perfect and going very smoothly. Everyday used to be a surprise for me and bring in happiness for me. Yes! Even an Ugly Duckling's life can be changed like this. I found myself so lucky to have all the pleasures of life. Weeks passed by, in winter break I went back home and my parents were just shocked to see me and my new look. I looked a bit slim and groomed. Even in my home town now people started to talk to me and used to pay me the attention I deserved. It was really awesome. Delhi proved to be a grooming ground for me and I thanked it from the core of my heart for changing me and killing the old Shania.

Days passed by, I came back to Delhi for celebrating New Year with my buddies, to party and enjoy but till when could my life go on smoothly? God had something really unexpected and shocking in store for me, something which just changed my life upside down.

RUINED EVERYTHING

It was New Year's Eve. Everyone was excited and in full on party mood. Loud music, drinks, smoke, dance, rock and full on enjoyment was at it's peak. I was busy with Ronit. We were holding hands and dancing crazily on that loud music, celebrating our new relationship. I was so glad being with him. A guy like him was all I ever wanted. Time passed by, it was 12am, we all hugged and kissed each other celebrating the new start, wishing good luck and prosperity throughout to everyone. I was busy drinking and was so drunk that I could hardly remember what actually happened after that, I actually didn't remember what happened exactly that night but I just know one thing whatever happened, was just not right coz when I came back to my senses, I was in a lock up, arrested with Riya. I was shocked to see myself like that, I was wearing extremely short dress, hairs messed up, my kohl smurged, my lens hurt me a lot now, I saw around, I was inside lock up with a lady constable staring me giving nasty looks. Riya was speechless and didn't move. "What happened? What are we doing here? Why are we here?" I shook Riya, shouted at her but she didn't reply. I went to the lady constable and asked her but she didn't reply too. I was at the police station, reason? I myself had no idea.

Everything was totally messed up now. I tried to recall but my memory failed. All I could remember was that we all were partying hard and celebrating New Year eve to the core. I stressed myself a lot but still couldn't remember anything except that party aura. An hour passed by, they opened the lock up and threw two dirty plates with that smelly stale jail food towards us, as if we were dogs. I couldn't believe this was happening with us but we were so hungry that we had it immediately. I was extremely tensed now. Situation was just awful. I couldn't make out what the hell was happening. No one was speaking up. No one was telling what the scenario was. Hours passed by, suddenly I saw a known face, it was my father. I immediately ran up to him and tried to hug him through the jail bars but to my surprise, for the first time in my life, he didn't hug me back. This action of my father shook me from within. He didn't utter a single word and just kept looking at me. His eyes clearly said that he was ashamed of me. I just couldn't face him now. I looked down and felt guilty, guilty for whatever I did yesterday night coz something was definitely not right. The very next moment, a lady constable came and opened our lock up. Me and Riya were brought forward to the inspector. I saw Ronit and our whole Flames group there too along with a few other people with whom we were partying yesterday night.

But still the question was same, Why? Why were we here? What did we do? Immediately the inspector shouted "So that all your parents and guardians are now here, I wanna ask you clearly, since when you all are into Drug smuggling?" I was jaw dropped hearing that question. My senses stopped. I went numb. In fact, I almost fainted hearing what he said. "Drug Smuggling? Me? What?" I shouted back in shock. Everyone started staring me. Inspector said to me "Keep your voice down you shameless girl. Don't act innocent as if you don't know anything. Yesterday we caught you all red handed supplying drugs and even taking them."

"And what's the proof?" I asked adamantly

"He showed me a few pictures which they might have captured through the CCTV camera yesterday which showed all of us having drugs and I saw Ronit and two other guys giving small packets to someone. Might be selling it coz they took money in return from them. Now this was a serious issue. I couldn't believe this happened to me. I mean why? Why me? I trusted Ronit. I thought he was a nice guy but he came out to be a drug smuggler, he cheated me, he broke my trust. I don't even remember when I had drugs but I am sure I must have been out of my senses as I was drunk completely and he might have taken advantage of it and made me have drugs. I didn't even realize when I immersed in tears. I pleaded my father to trust me. I told him everything truly and honestly but I guess no one believed this "Changed Shania" now. My father refused to bail me even and left me like that in the police station. I shouted, I begged but no one, no one helped me.

Everything ruined, everything, just in a single night, in a single party, due to a wrong guy, due to my wrong choice, due to my changed self, I RUINED EVERYTHING, my love, my life, my future, my career, my everything

I WISH I WAS AN UGLY DUCKLING AGAIN…

They said "Don't screw anyone or else, Karma will screw you", Yes it proved to be right for me. All this happened to me only coz of my wrong choice, Ronit. I went to flashback. Vipul, was someone who did so much for me, he made me what I am today, he sacrificed for me, he loved me, made every possible effort, anything and everything a guy could do for a girl. But, what did I do? What did he get in return? When he left me due to my mistake, instead of apologizing, I just left him thinking he would come back himself and when he didn't, I ignored him and moved on in my life. Yes, this is what I did to him. I felt ashamed and guilty. What if, what if I didn't leave him? What if he was still with me? What if I continued my usual life? Things would definitely be on the other way if Vipul was with me.

They say "When we are happy, we remember the person whom we love the most and when we in trouble, we always remember the person who loves us the most" Yes, might be I never loved Vipul but I know he loves me. So selfish I am seriously. Now, I understood why Vipul said I am totally changed. Yes, I am changed, totally changed now. No doubt he was right. I folded my legs and lied down on that dusty floor, crying and crying. May be, this was what I deserve. I cried even more. No one was with me, no one. I was alone, all alone, trapped. There was no way out. Even my parents left me, disowned me. For me, life ended. I felt like killing myself. I just couldn't bear this insult anymore.

Days passed by, now I stopped speaking. I just remained quiet. I accepted the fact that now this is my life and I have to be here forever. I couldn't even sleep. Now I understood the value of my parents, my lifestyle, my home, Fantastic five, Vipul. Since, I had none of my pillars with me, I realized how wrong I was. I realized their value when they were gone. I was dead now. I had lost all hope but as they say, "True friends never leave you", even my Fantastic Five didn't leave me alone. I saw all four of them including Vipul who came to rescue me. I was so ashamed of myself. This is called true friendship. Sarthak's father was lawyer and they arranged bail for me on the grounds that I wasn't the main culprit and needed further treatment as I wasn't well. They even had to pay a heavy fine of Rs. 50,000 for all the formalities. The woman constable opened my lock up, gave creepy looks and said "You were lucky this time but you won't be lucky every time"

I smiled at her and said "Yes! You are right but I will make very sure that I won't be indulged in bad company and such stuff again. I won't let this happen to me ever again." I came out and saw Vipul. I ran up to him and hugged him tight but he didn't hug me back. "I am sorry" I said but he didn't listen, he moved me away and left. I saw around. Reema, Gagan and Sarthak were there. I went to them but even they didn't listen anything and just left. I was shattered seeing their behaviour. May be, may be this was what I deserve. I went back and tried to contact them all but they didn't gave me a single chance. For days I kept on trying to contact Vipul, every time he ignored me. Then I messaged him "Vipul, I swear I won't disturb you again, but please, if you ever loved me, one last time, talk to me, please, last time"

Then after a while I called him and finally he picked "Vipul, I know sorry is just a mere word for what I did. I know apologizing now makes no sense, I know I don't even deserve to talk to you and I know how wrong I am but please for once, please meet me, just one last time. I just want to clear things up and I promise I won't say a single word on your decision whatever it will be, I promise!"

"Meet you? Shania? Please! Spare me now. We helped you out only coz you were our friend once and as a human we couldn't see you trapped when it wasn't even your fault. Anyway, now that you are out, just be happy, I don't want any contact from your side now. I am happily moved on, accept this truth. Bye and yes, this is our final take coz you don't deserve our love for you. You are one changed selfish Shania who has no place with us now so just go away from our life" He said adamantly and cut the call. Tears rolled down my eyes. He was right. I didn't deserve him. I went to my washroom, shattered and distressed totally, saw myself into the mirror, I got irritated seeing my new look, took pumic stone and started breaking the mirror into pieces, shouting, crying, going totally mad, wishing, WISHING TO BE AN UGLY DUCKLING AGAIN, wishing to be the same Shania again, wishing things to get fine again...

GOOD BYE

I was shattered, smashed and totally distressed. I didn't know what to do, where I was heading. Now my only aim was to get Vipul in any case. I just wanted to be with him now. Whole night I kept on thinking for a solution. After deep thinking I thought of bringing back the old Shania in me, the Ugly Duckling again. I opened by cupboard to find out the same old dirty wardrobe I used to wear before. I found the same dirty printed kurti, wore it, found the same old flat slippers, slipped it in too, removed all my make up, tied my hairs, wore my big black framed spectacles, carried that old bag and headed towards college. As soon as I entered my class, everyone started laughing at me and passed comments "Bring in some coke", "Oops coke is here" "Is this Flames practice room or disc?" "Aunty returns"

I heard all the comments and ignored them. My eyes were searching only for Vipul but I could find him nowhere. The very next second, our lecturer arrived. She saw me and immediately shouted "How come you are here Shania? After what all you Flames group have done, we are ashamed. You all have been dismissed from college" Immediately whole class started smiling. I couldn't believe this happened. I ran to our Dean's office and got to know that the news was true. All Flames people who were involved in that Drug scandal were dismissed from college. Within a second, my life took a roller coaster turn, I was dismissed? This means my career will be ruined forever coz my college dismissed me and no other college would admit me after what all happened? I begged, I pleaded but no one listened. After getting insulted publically I went back home, called my parents, no one answered. Yes, my parents actually disowned me.

I was extremely tensed now. I had no money left. My parents left me. My college gone. My career all finished. My life ruined and for what? For what I got punished? For trusting a wrong guy? I didn't even intended to drug but no one listened to me, no one believed me. Yes! I was wrong, I made a wrong choice but this intense punishment I was receiving from everyone killed me from within. I had no hope left. I was feeling so distressed and alone. I stopped crying now and became totally insane. I started calling people to help me but everyone ignored me. My last hope was the Fantastic Five. I called Reema, she cut my call. I called Sarthak, he didn't answer. I called Gagan, he picked, abused me and cut the call. Finally, my last hope, I called Vipul, he picked and said "Don't you understand what I said Shania? Just go to hell and spare me. Go, Go away!" and cut my call.

I kept my phone on the floor and thought that may be, may be Vipul was right. I should go away now coz there was nothing left for me here. Everyone hates me, no one even wants to look at my face, no one trusts me, not even my parents, I have no hope left, I have no career left, I have no future remaining. I closed my eyes, a tear slit down my eye, I opened my eyes, picked my cell and started typing a message to Vipul, I sent him that text, took out a long stole, placed a chair, stood on it, hanged the stole across my room fan, pulled it over my neck, removed the chair and said my last words to myself "I AM SORRY"

Yes! Shania hanged herself to death. Wanna know what her last text to Vipul was? Read on

"Vipul, you were, is and will always be my love! I know I did wrong with you but you know I am also a human. Humans are meant to do mistakes. I did a very big mistake but the punishment I received from everyone was just too big compared to my mistake. You were right, I should go and I am going away, forever and ever. This time no turning back. I wish, I really wish I could live more, I wish I could get that time back, our time back, I wish I could get that first day of college back, I wish I could get your stupid nagging back, I wish I could get our Fantastic Five back, those laughter, those house parties, those truth and dares, I wish I could get our love back, I wish I could get our first hug, our first kiss back, I wish I could get your proposal back, I wish I could get that innocent Ugly duckling back, I wish I could reverse time and change everything and make it back to normal but unfortunately that's not possible. I tried a lot but I am left with no hope. I promise that if ever we meet in next birth, I won't change this time and will be your Ugly Duckling, forever and ever, so till then, take care. I love you! Very, very, very much. Good bye and if possible, Forgive me, that's my last wish and I hope you will ful fill it my love"

I don't know what happened after Shania's death but I just know one thing that later on, for their entire life, Vipul, Fantastic Five and Shania's parents could have never forgive themselves for what they did to her. We should never persuade someone so much that they have no option left other then death. Yes! This is a true story of a girl, who committed suicide coz of the prevailing situations and mental torture she underwent. She couldn't face the world and people made her life so miserable that she preferred death to be a better alternative. Why? Why did she commit suicide? She was a confident girl now but people around her persuaded her to take such a drastic step. What if Vipul would have conversed with her once? What if her parents would have been with her for once? What if her classmates and teachers wouldn't have insulted her publically? Yes! Shania might be alive then, amongst us, happy and shining but she is no more now. We all commit mistakes, big mistakes but it's high time we realize the value of forgiving people for those mistakes. Just forgive and forget. I don't know where is Shania right now but, from the core of my heart, this tribute "UGLY DUCKLING" goes to her from my side and may her soul RIP…